Adorable FetLife Guy and I are no longer friends.
I can’t really go into it right now because I’m still really raw from the whole experience and don’t feel like crying again. I’ll eventually tell the whole story. But basically, he hates me for reasons that aren’t even valid/true. He not only de-friended me on Fet and Facebook, but he apparently blocked me on Fet as well. So I can’t even check in on him once in awhile to see how he’s doing. He has cut me out of his life completely, and broken my heart all over again.
I know that no matter how much I care for and love him, he’s not good for me. Even with all our good times, he has put me through hell emotionally. And if he can’t find it in his heart to forgive me for making an honest mistake (again, long story; to be explained later), then I shouldn’t be around him anymore. HE doesn’t deserve ME. We could’ve been lifelong friends, but he fucked up that possibility.
But still. The illogical part of me still loves him and it’s killing me to have to let him go. I can’t describe how much this hurts, nor can I believe that this is how our friendship is ending.
I don’t know…I just. I can’t even. :( That’s all for now.